Archive for February, 2008

FEAR, OR THE THINGS WE FEAR?

Wednesday, February 20th, 2008 by mswora

Which does us more harm? In this age of terrorism, winner-takes-all politics, and growing scarcities, which are more destructive, the things we fear, or our fear of them? The following story, which I heard in Burkina Faso several years ago, may shed some light. I’ll begin relating it the way Jula-speaking griots (story-tellers and singers) of Burkina Faso typically begin a story: 

“Nsirin, nsirin: m’ben’a bla Siriki ani sama kan.”

A story, a story; I shall put it on Siriki and the elephant.

A herd of elephants can be dangerous enough, but most dangerous of all is a young rogue bull elephant who wanders off on his own. No other elephants are around to make him mind his manners and respect his elders. Such a rogue bull elephant once broke from the herd in the neighborhood of Boromo, Burkina Faso, and wandered south toward the sugar cane fields of Banfora.

About this time, in a little village along the winding road to the market city of Banfora, lived a young man named Siriki. Like other young men, Siriki had a field of yams, some of which he sold, and some of which he cut up and planted at the beginning of every rainy season. In just three or four years, the few yams his uncle had once given him had grown in number to where he could take some every market day to Banfora and sell them for money to buy gifts for his family and gas for his moped

Though Siriki lived more than a few miles from Banfora, he could always get to the market early by taking a narrow trail, a winding footpath really, through the forests and the cane fields. He got better prices when he set out his yams early, and by taking this short cut, he didn’t have to contend with the big trucks full of fruits and rice and cloth coming into town for the market.

One market day morning , Siriki loaded a large burlap bag with yams, each one with black, prickly skin, as long as a man’s forearm and as thick as his leg. He wrapped the mouth of the bag closed with string, hoisted it onto the rack on the back of his moped, and tied it down with rubber straps cut from the worn-out inner tubes of truck tires. Keeping the moped and its heavy cargo barely balanced, Siriki began pedaling and cranking the starter on the right handle bar until the moped roared into life and sped off toward Banfora.

Just a mile to the west, by a small village under a baobab tree to the left, Siriki turned off the road, zoomed past a courtyard, scattering chickens and a few goats, waved to the old men sitting in the shade of the big baobab tree, and wound his way through the corn fields toward the trail that would take him directly through the forests and the cane fields to the market of Banfora.

After passing through fields of millet and sorghum, and negotiating his way through two muddy ravines, Siriki was more than halfway to Banfora when he rounded a bend in the trail and saw, standing between walls of tall grass, blocking the path just a stone’s throw ahead, a mountain. Strange: there’d never been a mountain here before. Or was it a big, gray rock? Or the wall of large, concrete block building? That’s new.

And then Siriki saw the rock, or the wall, or the mountain move. When an ear flapped, Siriki suddenly understood, with a shiver going up his spine, that it was an elephant standing broadside across the trail. It was the young rogue bull from the herd near Boromo! Siriki squeezed the brakes of his moped for all he was worth, and the moped slid to a halt. The motor died, leaving Sirki straddling the bike, trying to keep it upright against the weight of his sack of yams, which was now leaning to one side.

When the elephant heard the sound of Siriki’s moped, and smelled Siriki and his yams, it lifted its trunk, flapped its ears and trumpeted an ear-splitting, blood-curdling challenge. Trembling and terrified, Siriki began walking his moped backwards. But the elephant decided that he wanted yams for breakfast and began stamping its feet and shuffling toward him.

Siriki briefly considered abandoning the moped, but then he knew he’d never outrun the elephant on foot. Only on motorized wheels could he possibly outrun the rapidly approaching mountain of a beast. With the elephant getting closer, Siriki turned the moped around and began pedaling as fast as he could, while cranking the starter with his right hand. He could feel the sheer weight of the elephant causing the earth to tremble as it closed in on him. The engine barely began coughing to life when he felt the tug of the elephant’s trunk on his bag of yams, causing him to lose speed for an instant. Then the rear wheel began to spin under the engine’s power, and after a second of resistance from the elephant’s grasp on the bag of yams, Siriki’s moped shot forward, breaking free of the elephant’s hold.

But the elephant was just as determined to eat those yams as Siriki was to escape, and as he sped through the walls of grass on either side of the trail, Siriki could hear the elephant trumpeting in rage and crashing through the weeds in hot pursuit, raising clouds of dust, flattening bushes and breaking through overhanging branches as he came. He could even feel the ground shaking through the spinning wheels of his moped.

Never had Siriki slid so recklessly and so quickly through a muddy ravine as he did with the elephant behind him. The loud thumping and splashing sounds he heard in the trickle of muddy water at the bottom of the ravine convinced him that the elephant was still in hot pursuit.

But while speeding down the trail toward the next ravine, Siriki noticed that he no longer heard the elephant trumpeting, nor did he feel the ground quaking. He wanted to glance behind himself to see if the elephant was still in pursuit, but to do that safely, he would have to slow down. Just as he loosened his grip on the accelerator, he heard more loud banging and the sound of something crashing through the brush. With a quick turn of the wrist, Siriki accelerated and zoomed through the next ravine more quickly than he ever knew he could, weaving and sliding through the mud and the water, with the heavy bag of yams rocking back and forth. More banging and splashing sounds convinced him that he was still being chased.

Soon he began to see the tall baobab tree rising over the village by the road, and the cone-shaped thatch roofs of houses standing guard over the patches of corn that tell you that you are approaching a village. Surely the elephant must be afraid to follow him this far, Siriki thought to himself. But some more thumping, rolling, and crashing sounds made his heart leap up into his throat.

As he passed, at break-neck speed, children and women out hoeing their corn, they looked up at him, frightened that anyone should be driving so recklessly through places where people live and work. “Run; an elephant is after me!” Siriki yelled, and they fled the fields, grabbing the littlest children and running toward their homes. The old men under the baobab tree heard him and scattered, too.

As he regained the paved road, Siriki thought that surely the elephant would never follow him this far. But another loud thump and more crashing sounds in the brush at the edge of the road scared him into fleeing toward his village at top speed. Perhaps a hunter along the road would shoot the raging rogue elephant, he thought. If he ever got home alive, Siriki told himself, he would wait for the next market day to go to Banfora, and by the main road that time.

People were still coming down the road, some in trucks and cars, some on bicycles, some on foot, carrying firewood or charcoal or sacks of fruit or grain on their heads, to sell in Banfora. As he raced up the road toward them, yelling about a pursuing elephant, people scattered left and right, which only further convinced Siriki that the elephant was indeed still behind him. More thumping and crashing sounds in the brush along the road kept him racing ahead at full throttle, until he saw a woman drop her load of firewood from her head and yell, “Yams! You’re dropping yams from your moped!”

Siriki slowed down, glanced behind himself, and saw a young boy running from the road toward the woods with a big black yam under his arm. He stopped and, turning around, saw, almost beyond sight, another girl stooping to pick up a yam from the side of the road. Looking behind himself, at the moped’s rack, he saw that the burlap sack was open and nearly empty, except for one last yam. No raging elephant was anywhere to be seen.

Then Siriki knew: the elephant must have opened the sack when he pulled on it with his trunk. When, he wondered, did the elephant stop chasing him, and when did he start confusing the sound of falling yams with the sound of the world’s largest land animal in hot pursuit? And the question I leave with us is this: Which did Siriki more harm in the end, the elephant, or his fear of the elephant?

All Jula stories end this way: “N’y'a soro yoro minna, m’ben’a bla yen.” And now I shall put this story back where I found it.

Mathew Swora, pastor

YOU MUST BE BORN AGAIN!

Wednesday, February 20th, 2008 by mswora

I can remember the date, the place and even the time when I answered an altar call because I "felt my heart strangely warmed," to quote John Wesley, by a message about Zaccheus, in which I felt like the preacher had been reading my mail. Then, at the altar, I cried as the stone melted in my heart. It was a stone of self-righteousness and fear, which both come down to about the same thing. It was around 7:30 PM, at St. Christopher’s on the Sea, an Episcopalilan Church on Key Biscayne, Florida, on August 9, 1973.

But I also know many, many saints, far more mature and faithful than I, who cannot name the date or time or place in which Jesus stepped into their lives anew. To quote a book title, they may have been "growing up born again." Jesus has been their ever-constant friend, they have been walking in the kingdom of God for as long as they remember, and I hope they are grateful for having avoided some of the things the forcibly converted had to repent of. I don’t doubt their membership in God’s kingdom at all. The fruits of their lives speak for themselves.

In fact, I question the all-too-common tendency of American revivalism to identify the new birth of which Jesus speaks in John 3 with a one-size-fits-all emotional experience. The journey of a thousand miles is at least as important as the first step. This over-done tendency also has the unfortunate effect of helping people believe that the new birth–and therefore all decisions– is over and behind us once the hand is raised, the tears are shed and the commitment card is signed. If we follow the logic of what Jesus tells Nicodemus in John 3, the decision Nicodemus must make will start in motion a life of rebirth into deeper, richer, and yet more costly stages of discipleship, in which he will have to die to many of the privileges, powers, positions and relationships of his life before Jesus, if he is to "see" all that is his in God’s kingdom.

Or did I miss the boat? Check out last Sunday’s message on Nicodemus and the kingdom of God at Download Lent2-08.doc . What do you think?

Mathew Swora, pastor

NATURE DEFICIT DISORDER: A SPIRITUAL CONDITION?

Tuesday, February 12th, 2008 by mswora

The story I heard on public radio was about a person who bought a three-legged fryer at the grocery store. Not that the chicken had been born with three legs (I hope). Rather, it is not uncommon for butchers to toss in an extra chicken leg with a cut-up chicken so that three children at home won’t fight over two drumsticks. The next day the shopper came back to the grocery store to demand either that the store refund the purchase, or replace the missing chicken leg. There should be a fourth one, right?
To me that story, if true, is Exhibit A of our culture’s growing disconnect from nature. It was highlighted even more in an article in yesterday’s Minneapolis Star-Tribune, “Kids Just Don’t Get Out(doors) Much Anymore” (February 11, 2008). http://www.startribune.com/local/15496981.html This trend has elsewhere been called “Nature Deficit Disorder,” and is due to our increasingly busy schedules, our increasingly technological lives, and the fact that fishing in the rain or waiting for tomatoes to grow don’t quite have the adrenaline effect that video games like Halo are said to have. As growing numbers of youth leave the outdoors to shrinking numbers of older people in favor of technological lives in artificial climates, that leaves governmental and private conservation agencies wondering how they are going to fund parks, wildlife refuges, pollution control and wildlife management programs if fewer and fewer people are paying for them through license fees and the purchase of shotgun shells and fishing tackle. It also leaves me wondering what will become of the human race if we should forget that we too are animals who depend just as much upon good soil, water and air as are muskrats and Canada geese. I believe that we are created in the image of God and have spiritual lives. But that doesn’t make me a Gnostic dualist who believes that the material world is a wicked mistake and that only invisible and substance-free realities exist and endure. The church’s doctrine of the Incarnation—that an invisible, omnipresent God took on our flesh and blood in a specific time and place—has always been at direct odds with this super-spiritualized and esoteric tendency.

I have also experienced God most intensely on the material, animal level. Really. Internal spiritual experiences have always been fleeting and unreliable for me. Where I experience God more and more over time is in things like sharing food, a hug, a word of love coming through a physical voice box, an action of love carried out by calloused and perhaps wrinkled, age-spotted hands. And something quickened in me the other night, far outside of town, when I saw the brilliance of the stars in the night time sky in a way that I had not for years. I think it was what the Psalms and the Proverbs call “the fear of the Lord,” or what Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heschel called, “radical awe.” The computer on which I type this essay inspires in me some gratitude and occasional frustration, but nothing like what I recently experienced in the snow, among the oaks and maples, under the stars of a clear winter sky.

St. Ignatius Loyola always urged us “to seek first the God of all comforts, rather than the comforts of God.” But when the comforts of God have sought me out, it was often in the presence of woods and water and flesh-and-blood people. I don’t think that’s a coincidence. And they are all gifts. I didn’t make them. Nor earn them. But God forbid that I should degrade them or deny them to someone else. How can I offer the gospel to someone else if, by my lifestyle, I am denying them clean air, clean water, and a life-sustaining climate?

What do you think?

Mathew Swora, pastor

Emmanuel Mennonite Church, St. Paul, MN

FOR LENT: A TALE OF TWO TREES

Monday, February 11th, 2008 by mswora

Lent is not so much about what we give up, as its about what God gives us. I am following some of our denomination’s resources and guidelines for Lent, including the daily devotional helps from Goshen College, which you can access at http://www.goshen.edu/devotions, among other things, in order to follow the ancient Christian practice of preparing over these forty days for Easter’s resurrection celebration.

The journey of Lent typically begins with two stories of temptation: the one into which we, like Adam, typically fall (Genesis 3); and the one which Christ fought and won (Matthew 4: 1-11). I found it helpful to think about these two stories as the stories of two trees. You can access yesterday’s message (February 10, 2008) to this effect at this link: Download Lent1-08.doc

And what do these trees have to do with jealousy? I have lately become convinced (and convicted) that jealousy is a very clear window into the condition of the soul and, indeed, of our fall into sin. Pastors do get jealous too, I confess. Jealous of other pastors’ faster-growing and attention-grabbing ministries; or of other people who have more clearly-defined jobs that they clock in and out of (where’s my time card?), even though people in those other jobs may be jealous of others with freer schedules and more chances to be creative and connected. I’m also convinced that jealousy is worse than a waste of time. And yet the economy thrives on it, and entire nations are mobilized to fight wars over it.

The following name has been changed to protect the innocent. Let’s call her Sally. Sally played violin in our citywide youth orchestra so well that she got to play lead part in a concerto her senior year. Sally was also a superb baseball player. And a superb scholar who, if she didn’t go to college on a full scholarship, should have. Worst of all, Sally was not stuck up about her talents, but was friendly, respectful and gracious to everyone. How dare she? Thirty years later I can say its great to have been around such talent, brains, character and personality as Sally’s. I am around people with various combinations of such great gifts all the time today. Now I can appreciate it and learn from them (I hope). But at the immature and insecure age of fifteen, I confess I was watching Sally closely, hoping for some sign of a fall that would signal presumption and pride.  Now I can’t remember any such thing, and it doesn’t matter. If ever I find that she has become the concert mistress of a major symphony orchestra, or the president of a major university, I will say she had it in her and that I was privileged to see it back then, even if I didn’t appreciate it as much at the time as I should have. If not, then I’ll know I’m dealing with that same snake in the grass who said to Eve, "You will be like God…." What nerve, what chutzpah, trying to make us jealous against God Almighty! And what a terrible burden, constantly carrying around the question, "How do I rate (compared to others)?" As one wise wag put it, "If you keep asking ‘How do I rate?’ that’s all you’ll ever get: irate."

Blessings to you,

Mathew Swora, pastor

SO, WHAT ARE WE UP TO?

Thursday, February 7th, 2008 by mswora

It has been more than three years since my return from a sabbatical trip through Africa (Burkina Faso, Cote d’Ivoire, Nigeria and Ethiopia). In that time, we at Emmanuel Mennonite Church have sought to implement some of the lessons learned and shared from that experience. You can read about what those lessons are from our partner churches, and what we’ll do to continue implementing them, in the message that was delivered last Sunday (February 3, 2008), at Download Transfiguration2008.doc .